Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Rainbows and Puppies
It's quite possible (almost entirely true) that I am the happiest I've been in a while. In fact, I'm the happiest I've been since I've moved to Seattle. With the exception of KR moving, I am in a fairly constant state of elation and gratitude. I am filled with a deep sense of appreciation for my place and time in life right now, the friends who are occupying my schedule (they are really fantastic people), and the events I happen to stumble upon. Words do not give justice to my feelings at this moment. In many moments. :)
Sunday, July 27, 2008
French Press Coffee
Man, we (AH and I) looked EVERYWHERE for one of these this morning! Seriously, we went to 5 different places and finally found one at Crate and Barrel. Phew. We needed our coffee.
I'm going to clean my room today and then meet JH at his new apartment in Capitol Hill/First Hill area to arrange moved-in items and go grocery shopping. Yay! I love to grocery shop. Then, we'll have dinner, drinks, and a fine concert experience at the Triple Door (a concert venue) in downtown Seattle later this evening. Should be fun!
What should I wear?
I'm going to clean my room today and then meet JH at his new apartment in Capitol Hill/First Hill area to arrange moved-in items and go grocery shopping. Yay! I love to grocery shop. Then, we'll have dinner, drinks, and a fine concert experience at the Triple Door (a concert venue) in downtown Seattle later this evening. Should be fun!
What should I wear?
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Gainfully Unemployed
The way it ought to be, right? My last contract day was yesterday. It's nice to have nothing to do, except I have SO MUCH to do that I won't have the luxury of enjoying that "nothingness" for a few more weeks. September should round out nicely empty, I'm hoping. Though, I have an interesting knack for filling up time and space fairly quickly.
Work starts up again in October and so far, I'm enjoying...well, hanging out with JH and relishing what's left of Seattle's summer. Naw, that's not true. Seattle still has a decent summer left, I just have to get it rolling. I'm too used to waking up at 5am and going to bed at 9pm to feel like I've taken advantage of all summer has to offer around here. KR is moving soon and, though I'm sad, I'm taking it in stride. Real best friends aren't a function of time or proximity and I have no doubt that our relationship will only be taken to a new level with the move. Sacramento's not THAT far away...as long as I'm in Seattle, which is where I plan on being for a while. An indefinite amount of time, anyways.
This morning, I went raspberry picking with my roommate and two of her friends. I arrived home from JH's later than expected and dressed in last night's clothes while they sipped on orange juice and chatted about high school events and people. We drove out to Carnation (which is a decent drive east) and picked for about an hour - you definitely can't go wrong paying $1.25 for one pound of raspberries. Then we went over to Red Hook Brewery which produces some mighty fine beer (try the Blonde Ale, it'll have you "hooked") and some damn good cuisine to boot. My roommate (AH) is planning on making raspberry wine with the loot from today, and while I respect and hope to benefit from that, I will be eating mine straight up.
In other news, "things" with JH are getting progressively more...."serious"...? With me being gone for almost the entire month of July and all, I have grown fonder of him and (I know) he of me. It's happening gradually, to neither of our planning - we wanted to remain un-exclusive so as not to risk "getting serious" and that's exactly what's transpiring. Funny how life works, isn't it? Right when you want to try to control things, something happens that is truly unplanned. And then you go from there. I can say that when I took this job 10 months ago, I never expected to fall for someone so deeply. (And I DEFINITELY didn't think that person would be the boss' son!) The relationship and friendship I have with him is unlike any I've ever experienced. Not only is there a respect, which seems to be the golden thread that weaves through all the pieces of our bond, but there is an undeniable connection that manifests itself in mutual trust (though still building), kindness, generosity and support. We can, want to, and will often talk for hours about both nothing and something collectively - the hardships we've endured in the past, the current state of the world, the petty things that piss us off, our families and friends, how much we appreciate each other's friendship. Things that may be "deal-breakers" with other people I've dated are non-issues with him because our emotional connection runs so deep. Yet, something about this situation is detached from my body - not in the negative sense of the word, but in the way that it doesn't adhere to my ego at all. The feelings I have for JH are more a part of my soul. And if we suddenly are not dating in a month, then I will still love and respect him, same as before. My ego will not be damaged, my heart will remain in tact, and I have no doubt that we would remain friends.
The above concept is a difficult one to explain, especially if you haven't experienced it before, but if you take yourself out of the syntax and read it based on feeling alone, I think you may be able to understand it. I hope I write well enough that you all (most a far distance away from here) can actually FEEL what I'm feeling when I type. That, I think, is part of the reason for this blog. In any case, I'm pretty tired and I want to go to bed!
Unfortunately, my computer is pretty much deceased (the front LCD light burnt out and is more expensive to replace than the whole computer), so I'm going to try to blog on AH's computer as much as I'm allowed. I am unemployed, after all.
:)
Work starts up again in October and so far, I'm enjoying...well, hanging out with JH and relishing what's left of Seattle's summer. Naw, that's not true. Seattle still has a decent summer left, I just have to get it rolling. I'm too used to waking up at 5am and going to bed at 9pm to feel like I've taken advantage of all summer has to offer around here. KR is moving soon and, though I'm sad, I'm taking it in stride. Real best friends aren't a function of time or proximity and I have no doubt that our relationship will only be taken to a new level with the move. Sacramento's not THAT far away...as long as I'm in Seattle, which is where I plan on being for a while. An indefinite amount of time, anyways.
This morning, I went raspberry picking with my roommate and two of her friends. I arrived home from JH's later than expected and dressed in last night's clothes while they sipped on orange juice and chatted about high school events and people. We drove out to Carnation (which is a decent drive east) and picked for about an hour - you definitely can't go wrong paying $1.25 for one pound of raspberries. Then we went over to Red Hook Brewery which produces some mighty fine beer (try the Blonde Ale, it'll have you "hooked") and some damn good cuisine to boot. My roommate (AH) is planning on making raspberry wine with the loot from today, and while I respect and hope to benefit from that, I will be eating mine straight up.
In other news, "things" with JH are getting progressively more...."serious"...? With me being gone for almost the entire month of July and all, I have grown fonder of him and (I know) he of me. It's happening gradually, to neither of our planning - we wanted to remain un-exclusive so as not to risk "getting serious" and that's exactly what's transpiring. Funny how life works, isn't it? Right when you want to try to control things, something happens that is truly unplanned. And then you go from there. I can say that when I took this job 10 months ago, I never expected to fall for someone so deeply. (And I DEFINITELY didn't think that person would be the boss' son!) The relationship and friendship I have with him is unlike any I've ever experienced. Not only is there a respect, which seems to be the golden thread that weaves through all the pieces of our bond, but there is an undeniable connection that manifests itself in mutual trust (though still building), kindness, generosity and support. We can, want to, and will often talk for hours about both nothing and something collectively - the hardships we've endured in the past, the current state of the world, the petty things that piss us off, our families and friends, how much we appreciate each other's friendship. Things that may be "deal-breakers" with other people I've dated are non-issues with him because our emotional connection runs so deep. Yet, something about this situation is detached from my body - not in the negative sense of the word, but in the way that it doesn't adhere to my ego at all. The feelings I have for JH are more a part of my soul. And if we suddenly are not dating in a month, then I will still love and respect him, same as before. My ego will not be damaged, my heart will remain in tact, and I have no doubt that we would remain friends.
The above concept is a difficult one to explain, especially if you haven't experienced it before, but if you take yourself out of the syntax and read it based on feeling alone, I think you may be able to understand it. I hope I write well enough that you all (most a far distance away from here) can actually FEEL what I'm feeling when I type. That, I think, is part of the reason for this blog. In any case, I'm pretty tired and I want to go to bed!
Unfortunately, my computer is pretty much deceased (the front LCD light burnt out and is more expensive to replace than the whole computer), so I'm going to try to blog on AH's computer as much as I'm allowed. I am unemployed, after all.
:)
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